How do you communicate & reach out to people when you get depressed & have very low self esteem ?
im 30 and suffer with bpd and ptsd , suffered alot of abuse in my life, which affected my self esteem greatly, im presently trying to pursue therapy , even though they said there was none in my area, no individual psychotherapy , so they reccommended some drop in centre where they do activities to help me integrate with people better because i have social problems and being able to relate to people and been isolated for so long.
ive never formed any relationships in life so far, always suffered low self esteem , my moods fluctuate so much from being ok one minute , to the floor disappearing from my world the next and being depressed with ' no self esteem '.
lots of people on the internet on myspace , on yahoo answers have reached out to me , i have mail just sitting in one msn hotmail account unanswered from one red head girl in kansas..
bottom line is im scared to get intouch with these people who reach out, especially females , incase i get clingy , act to desperate , needy , eager , lose my self esteem and ' clam up ' - they they back away and reject me , then i lose them.
or i do well intitially with them, get to like them, feel attached , then my traits show , my low esteem, clamming up, eagerness, clingyness, the crave for closeness to soon, then i lose them.
ive already lost potential friends through this site, because ive acted to clingy , with low self esteem , acting desperate when we chat live, and theyve picked this up and lost interest ; or ive been to afraid to reach out to people whove reached out to me because of fear of rejection.
how do i finally get over this problem ?
stop worry and do what you want to or you will never achieve anything in life!
Life is for taking chances
Just remember a sheep will fall into a pit, but a pig will wallow in it. If you don't ask, you will not receive.
Hope this helps you :)
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